am i the only one that sort of likes a slightly messy apartment and mondays?

today chris and i gave each other haircuts, i skipped grocery shopping, and we had pancakes and tofu scramble for dinner.
i really loved today.
the only problem is that instead of our usual tv binge or band rehearsal, chris switched a shift last week and had to work tonight.

so it's just me and the pups this evening and the house is super quiet.

i did start working on some new reeds tonight!
i really love to make reeds but i really hate deciding that i will spend the next two hours doing it.
like Pringles once you pop (or soak your cane) you just cant stop.
but it really is soothing and relaxing process, especially when you are home alone.

i like put on a mud mask, watch too much youtube, and whittle away for way longer than it should take.

side note, does anyone feel like so many of the channels are making the same exact videos??
it gets really annoying, especially when i have to put down my tools and search for something better.
tonight I have fallen in love with tastemade and this is pretty much what i watched all night.
this and too many tiny house tours.
one day i will have the most adorable tiny house, especially if i move back to florida.
chris likes the idea too and really wants to build a little home.
this video is my favorite interior and one of my least favorite video tours. if you watch it you'll figure out why within two minutes, but the interior is perfect.


this week is going to be a little different than usual.
i generally have sunday through wednesday to work at home and hang out with chris but I am going into the office tomorrow and I am not ready to be up before noon.
yesterday we binged on tv and were up until 5am >.< , orange is the new black is just to good to only watch one episode.
and tonight chris works super super late and i am bad at sleeping in a house alone.
i am hoping i can be in bed at a reasonable hour,  it is already about 2am and i am wide awake.
wish me luck


-bea

I can't believe it is already the end of July.

I received an email this morning saying I have to go to school this week to fill out paperwork, which is always heartbreaking.
Accepting student loans and paying for health insurance makes me sick to my stomach.
But I like where I am, I like the city, and I love that my husband is also happy here, so i guess it's worth it.

luckily I still have another month or so before classes startup and I still have some time to savor this summer.

First thing I want to do is find a good beach. I haven't been in 13 months!!
My legs have never been so pale, its gotten pretty bad.
The other day at the bar some one referred to me as white girl, which isn't a bad thing or anything just that it was the first time in my life that I've ever been referred to as or confused with a white girl.
the basement life struggle is real and i need to get outside in the daytime more.
If you have a favorite beach near NYC let me know because I'll probably end up at Coney island.

This weekend I  bought my pass for this years International Double Reed Society Conference!
This year the conference takes place at NYU so I don't need to pay for housing!!
:D:D:D:D!!
It is going to be the biggest and nerdiest conference I have been to and I am so excited to geek out on all things oboe. They have all these wellness classes, masterclasses, and evening outings where everyone can mingle and  listen to oboe and bassoon music together <3<3<3.
I am also looking forward to free oboe swag, I have no idea what to expect. When I went to the chamber music America conference I got so much free sheet music so I'm hoping they give out free cane and staples, or even reed cases! A girl can dream...
All nerdiness aside, I decided that I'm going to enter my first oboe competition this year!
I'm pretty terrified about it and the music looks really tough but I have a few months to prepare.
Plus stress is a good motivator and I need a little fire lit under my lazy butt.
I can't have another year like this past one, or ill never get any better.

Other big plans for the end of summer include a road trip home and hopefully a small camping weekend.
I've also been thinking about starting a YouTube channel and maybe that will be up by the end of summer..

What have you all been doing this summer?

-bea

happy wednesday all!

it's the middle of the week and i thought we could all use a little break so i wanted to share a bit of internet love with you.

grab a snack and enjoy!

Dear Photograph, My Grandfather showed his love for me then, by holding me. Now he is only able to hold my hand, but I feel his love for me. It is funny how some things change while others stay exactly the same.Brittan

i found this sweet little site after spending way too much time surfing the tumblr today and it was almost like getting a reward for not doing the work i should have been.

Dear Photograph, This is when I still had hair and my brother pooped himself. We were happy, but we didn’t know it. Domenico

Dear Photograph, I inherited my grandmother’s family photos several years ago and finally did some digging to see if I could find the old family homes around Detroit. Here’s one on Marx Avenue with my father in the early 1930s. Mary

Dear Photograph, "No, ma’am, it’s not a boy in a dress, it’s a girl in a dress.". The hair came, the dresses went, the park stayed. Nomeda

i want to do this with all of my families old photos.
it would be really exciting to travel to the countries where my family had lived and explore the cities where my parents and grandparents grew up.
even doing this with the not as old photos and being able to explore florida, new jersey, and some states in the west would be so exciting.

i think i am going to load up on new jersey photos the next time i head down to florida and see my family. i would love to see the areas i've heard so many stories about.

what do you think of this idea? do you think you might try it too?
i'd love to see the results if you do!

see more of Dear Photograph here.

-bea

happy wednesday!!

Sara Krulwich/The New York Times

Happy Monday!

It's been a while since I have posted a mixtape, so I thought I would do a special mixtape monday that isn't so much a mixtape as it is three albums that I cant stop listening to.